Friday, November 7, 2014

Halloween 2014

Welp, halloween was a bit of a bust. We had TWO trick-or-treaters come by. How depressing! Doesn't seem like a big thing on our street, and with everyones porch lights out and no street lamps, no one wants to walk down our dark street. Such a bummer. But David and I made the most of it. Here's a video showing you what we did:

Thursday, October 30, 2014

How to do small talk

I've been told I'm good at small talk so I thought I'd make a video explaining how its done. Enjoy!

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Music of Sept/Oct

Heres the problem with these music posts; when I start hearing music I like, I pretty much ONLY listen to that music, so I'm not finding much new stuff! So I've had to combine September and October since I was pretty much only listening to Chromeo(they really are awesome, go check them out). Anywho, here's the latest:

I'm not a huge fan of Owl City, but I am a big fan of Sekai No Owari, a Japanese group. It's neat to hear their voices together, and also to hear them sing English.

If you watch this with no idea what it's about, I am sorry, cause I'm sure thats pretty confusing! This song was made a long time ago, just a weird Shia Lebeouf song. But this guy made it amazing, from the singing, to the dancing, to the end surprise.

This is an oldie but a goodie, just an adorable song with adorable cats.

This video is so ridiculous and fun, and the song is super catchy.

DC Trip and Health

Whoopsie Dasie, I've been slacking on the blogging. Well last week David had to take a trip to DC for a work thing, and I got to tag along! We ended up staying at a really fancy hotel:

It was a bit stressful but we had fun and David learned a lot!

Since then the seasons have really changed, we're in full blown Fall, my favorite season!! But with cold weather and rain, my fibro has really been acting up. I'm having flare ups daily! It's hard to get much done when I ache so much, arg. I appreciate all the beautiful changing leaves though, and not having to use the air conditioner.

We've also gone all out for Halloween! This will be the first year we've had trick or treaters and I am so excited! We decorated our front porch with LOTS of fake spiders, and one giant fake one. I'm trying to make it look like a witch lives here, and the spiders are my minions. On Halloween night, I'll be dressed as a witch and David will be a frankenstein monster, the idea being that I created him since I was lonely. We're going to have a giant cauldron full of candy that has a fog machine in it and I've got a ladle for getting the candy out. I'm so pumped!! I'll take a picture of all the decorations closer to Halloween. I've painted some things with glow in the dark paint so I can't set them out yet in case of rain.

Final note, I'm dreaming in Japanese! I don't know what's being said (besides simple stuff I know) so I'm not sure if what's being said is actually Japanese or just gibberish, but it's pretty cool! I have to really be invested in Japanese daily if I want to learn it, so I guess thats now showing in my dreams. Crazy!

Friday, August 29, 2014

Music of August

You know, I think I'm going to make this a monthly thing, where at the end of the month I post my favorite songs at the moment. I just like sharing good music!

 A little silly and NSFW, but oh man it's catchy and hot

Fun and catchy

This video is painful to watch, but wow is the music and imagery powerful

How does he sing so high pitched?! It's amazing and I dig it

Yes, a very old song, but I heard it for the first time in Guardians of the Galaxy and it's so pretty(and depressing)

Let me know if you enjoyed any of these!

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Th greatest salad dressing ever

Well okay, that might be a stretch. I certainly haven't tried them all, but I am in love with this one. I found the recipe on Instagram and made it a bit my own.

I put it on a salad of romaine, apple slices, and brazil nuts

It's super duper easy to make, and not bad for you! You'll need:

1 can mango slices
1 can pineapple chunks (I end up using about 2/3 of the can)
Couple dashes of olive oil
Couple dashes of white wine vinegar
Couple squeezes of Dijon Mustard

Combine the above in a blender and that's it! As you can see, I don't really use measurements for this one, I just keep adding till it tastes how I like. But oh man does it taste good, and I end up making enough for about a week at two meals a day. I really really recommend adding fruit to your salad when using this, anything like apples, strawberries, dried cherries. Then a chopped nut for some healthy fats and proteins and you're good to go!

Let me know if you give this recipe a try!

Monday, August 25, 2014

Dog Sitting

I've found a thing! A thing I like! A thing that makes me money while not killing me! Woohoo!

I'm an official dog sitter, I have a profile on, which means they take a percentage but that way I'm insured and also gets my name out there. I had my first client from there this past week and that was quite a learning experience!

I watch Sandy (my moms dog) often just cause I love her so much. When her friend found out, she asked me to watch Buck

That went really good, so then I decided I'd try making pet sitting official. I ended up watching Handsome, a hyper yorkie who was super cute.

Now I'm going to let a gal that lives near by come use our yard a few times a week so her big dog has a place to play (since theres no local dog park). 

If you happen to be local, heres my website link. So yeah, good stuff happening:)

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Celebrity Deaths

This is going to be a weird post. It's 4 in the morning and I can't go back to sleep. If you haven't heard, Robin Williams died yesterday (apparent suicide). And while I'm incredibly sad over his passing, I'm not anywhere close to crying. Reading a lot of comments online, his death has really affected people more than they thought it would, ie first celebrity death they've cried over. So I kept wondering if I was weird for not being more visibly upset. But I think, when you've dealt with such a close, powerful, soul sucking, nothing makes sense anymore death, the death of others doesn't hit you as much. You know grief, what it really is. You know how it feels to hear those words, to lose someone you see every day, not just in a movie every now and then. Suddenly death, the way you react to it, it's not the same anymore. You're familiar with it, its a presence that looms around you forever. So the passing of a celebrity, while horrible and sad, it just doesn't affect you like it used to.

I'm not sure the point of this post, it's mostly a rant, and hey, isn't that what a blog is for? I guess I'm just trying to form into words how I feel, so I don't berate myself for not being more upset. Meh, words and stuff.

Sunday, July 13, 2014


If you're not familiar with the Japanese language, the title of this post might be a bit of a mouthful. But it's pretty easy to pronounce, O-ko-no-mi-ya-ki (japanese letters tend to always end on vowels, so if you're trying to pronounce a japanese word, you'll probably be correct if you separate the letters as such).

Anywho! Okonomiyaki is a popular japanese dish that I had been wanting to make for ages. It's main ingredients are cabbage and squid, which to some may sound awful. But I knew David and I would like it so I decided to give it a try.

Let's just say, living in Virginia, you're not going to have a great amount of options when it comes to ingredients. I could only find squid at my local asian market, not even Wegmens had it. The recipe also calls for Chinese Yam (nagaimo) and literally no one sells it here. I asked the owner of the asian market about the yams he had and he seemed pretty confused, saying his were korean yams, and that a yam is a yam. Sadly this isn't true, but I bought one anyway to give it a try. Nagaimo is grated to create a sticky substance to hold the okonomiyaki together. I grated the yam I got, but it was mostly just mush. Still I used it anyways, since it would at least provide some yam flavor and filler. Cabbage, eggs, and flour are also needed, which was fine since you can get those anywhere. I forgot to buy tempura, so I just substituted with bread crumbs. For toppings it's reccomended to use bonito flakes (dried fish), japanese mayo (trust me, it's different), and okonomi sauce (which is a sauce specifically made for okonomiyaki). Thankfully my asian market had all of these, so I was ready to go.

Have you ever cut squid before? Let's just say it's not easy. Slimy little buggers, their bodies are very rubbery and hard to cut through. I had David take a picture because this was a pretty new experience. There's nothing like getting squid goo all over your counter.

After combining everything, you cook them on a frying pan. Instantly it started to fill the kitchen with a delicious smell. I knew this was going to be good.

Look at that! Bet you thought it'd look awful huh? But nope, it looked and tasted amazing. Even with out it being completely authentic, I was really happy with the results. I should warn that it is a process to make, and you're going to get your whole kitchen dirty. But I recommend giving it a try (this is the recipe I worked with)!

Friday, June 20, 2014

We're done!

Ahhhh! We're moved in, everythings painted, I'm so happy! Heres a before and after of the front of our house:

(ignore the bad lighting)

Blue door and shutters, flowers instead of ugly bushes! Very very happy! 

And here's a whole tour of the house:

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

We bought a house!

I've only talked about it a little on facebook, but we bought our first house! It's a one story with a big backyard, 3 bed 2 bath, cute little neighborhood, front porch, just, ah, wonderful! I'm so so excited and I cannot wait to get out of this apartment. The house is officially ours on the 27th, its going to be a little crazy because we're getting new carpet and at the earliest that can happen is the 31st, which is the end of our least and also a friends wedding. So for a while we'll probably have the mattress in the living room haha. I was frustrated with this turn of events, and let myself be angry. Then after a while of anger (I played Team Fortress 2 which helped), I just let it go, took a hot bath, and said "oh well!". That's life, its crazy, and hey, we get to camp in our living room. It'll be kind of fun:)

I filmed a little video showing off our current apartment. I'll film the new house once its officially ours and the current owner has all their stuff out.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Work it David!

My grandma and grandpa were insanely kind enough to pay for David to get new clothes! He's gone from an XXXL to a Medium!!! So that required a whole new wardrobe, and more importantly, work clothes. Check him out!

Um hello, who is this guy?!?! Here's a reminder of what he looked like at our wedding:

CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS?!?!?! I am so incredibly proud of him, it's been about a year now that he's been dieting, and it hasn't been easy, that's for sure. But he's been so determined! Now his blood pressure is normal and he doesn't snore anymore. But most of all, he's happy with how he looks, and man does he look good!!

Thank you again grandma and grandpa!! We're super grateful!!

P.S. David and I are finishing our diets this week, but we plan to continue to eat healthy. We've both learned a lot about healthy eating habits and we're excited to be at our ideal weights:)

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Grief, What Its Like For Me 6 Years Later

Recently Offbeat Families reposted my article about my son on facebook, which lead to me reposting it on my facebook, which lead to a lot of my friends either hearing about it for the first time, or coming to understand what exactly happened. I wrote my story in 2010, and my advice is still accurate: I do prefer sympathy and then moving on. But I thought I'd talk today about how exactly I'm doing, and what life is like for me now.

First of all, I have to express how incredibly blessed I am to have David (my husband, when talking about my son I refer to him as Baby David) in my life. He recently said to me "your burdens are my burdens, don't feel sorry for them, let me help" and I swear I fell in love with him all over again. He is my best friend, and the one person I lean on with my grief; I don't know what I'd do without him.

Most days are like any other day. I go about it normally, sometimes something will make me think of Baby David and I don't feel sad, just nostalgic. And that's that.

But some days are still bad. My grief hits me like a ton of bricks and it comes out of no where. Suddenly I don't know how I can keep doing this, living without him. I cry and cry, yell how it's not fair, bawl my eyes out, sometimes starting a panic attack. David holds me the whole time, comforting me and making me feel not so alone. I hate those days, but I know they're inevitable, and they'll probably always exist.

Some years, I don't visit his grave, it just doesn't dawn on me to do it, nor feel like something I need to do. I don't think thats cold of me, it's just how I deal with it. But sometimes I do, and those visits are so painful. David always comes with me, and we only go at night, so theres no one else around (we're also breaking the cemetery visiting hours rules, but that hasn't been an issue). We bring a mat to sit on, a lantern to see with, his favorite book, and plenty of tissues. The visits always start out simple enough; I tell him whats been going on in my life, what's new with Nana and his Uncle Josh. And then I read to him Guess How Much I Love You, and that's when the tears really start flowing. Even from David, who never got to meet him, cries with me. We talk about how much he's missed, how we wish we could watch him grow. How I hope he'll have a brother or sister in the future. And then after we've gotten all the tears out, we pack up, leave, and try to go back to every day life.

The comments I get when I write about my son don't always sink in on normal days. I'm not feeling the grief, in fact it feels distant to me, so the sympathy feels weird. But on those bad days, thats when I really appreciate your words. They let me know I'm not alone, that people do care, even if they can't understand the pain.

And so I guess that's another reason I'm writing this. Not just to update you on my life, but so I can have a few more encouraging words to look at when I need them. When I have a bad day, and it feels like no one cares or even realizes what I'm going through, it's just...more pain than one should have to feel. And maybe this is selfish of me, asking for your sympathy, I don't know. I just want to make those bad days a little less awful.

So if you leave me a comment here or on facebook and I don't seem very responsive, that just means I'm having a good day. But know that when those bad days happen, I'm going to read them, soak them in, fill me with love, and make the grief just a bit easier to bear.

Thank you.

Saturday, March 8, 2014

My results and Walden Farms reviews

Let me preface this by saying, even though David has lost over 100lbs with Ideal Protein, the fact that I can never lose weight has convinced me that IP wont work for me. But on Wednesday I went in for my weigh-in and the results?

I lost 5lbs!!!

I've never weighed this little! And even though I lost weight I'm still having a hard time believing this will work. If it does though, I'm curious as to when it will finally click for me. But for now I'm just sticking with it, slowly becoming less grumpy as I go on.

I'm still not a fan of vegetables, but I've found that if I cook broccoli and cauliflower till its mushy, then add lemon juice, it's pretty yummy. And David and I are looking into various recipes using zucchini.

So all our Walden Farms stuff arrived! And it ain't too bad. Just a little background info, WF products have zero carbs, and most of the time, zero anything else. You can find them at some grocery stores, but I recommend They have the biggest selection and its way cheaper.

We got Caesar and Italian salad dressing and man oh man I'm so happy we did. I was worried because WF Ranch is pretty awful, but these were great! I'm excited to try the Caesar with chicken and salad, I think that'll be good.

The Chocolate Syrup tastes a little odd but it will totally satisfy your chocolate craving. Plus you can add it into the IP shakes and puddings for extra chocolaty goodness.

The Peanut Butter is a bit meh, since it's not very sweet. But David added it to his vanilla drink and thought it was really good. We're also going to experiment with making a peanut sauce for chicken.

The Honey BBQ is pretty good, so long as you don't use a lot. I dip my chicken in it and love it that way. I'm soooo happy about it!

I've always just learned about brining and oh man, it makes such a difference! I was never a big meat person but having chicken be all moist is awesome.

So, success!

Monday, March 3, 2014

Ideal Protein, another opinion

Welp, I did it guys; I started Ideal Protein. My main reason is that with my fibro, I can't exercise without causing a flare up, and I don't know how to eat not just carbs. And I'd love to lose the 20 lbs I've been carrying for years now. So I started last Monday and my opinion?


Here's the deal: Ideal Protein means you're going to be eating a butt load of veggies, and I absolutely hate veggies. But I knew this going into it, and it's another reason I decided to do it; I'm hoping it will MAKE me like veggies. David, on the other hand, loves vegetables. Always has, that crazy guy. So though the diet has been tough for him because it really limited what he could eat, at least he gets to eat lots of stuff he loves. Me? Now I can't have all the things I love, like cheese, rice, crackers, dark chocolate, bread. So I am much more grumpy about this whole ordeal.

In a way this is probably good for you guys, so you can see how the diet works for different kinds of people. If you already like veggies, IP isn't going to kill you. If you don't, prepare to suffer like me.

Now I could eat veggies if they were, say, covered in ranch dressing, or cheese, or whatever, but obviously that won't work. So we're really experimenting to see what'll get me to eat them. We just placed a big order with Walden Farms, who sell sauces/dips/dressings that work with IP. I've only had their ranch, and though it tastes nothing like ranch and leaves you feeling sad and empty inside, it does make salad eatable. Hopefully the other stuff we order will be good; I plan to talk about them once we get and try them.

I'm also looking into plenty of recipes that combine veggies with the IP packets. Granted, that doesn't really force me to taste the veggies, but at least I'm eating them.

And as a side note, the IP packets really are delicious. I can't complain about them at all (I wish I only had to eat them, that'd be way easier!). If you find you don't like them, experiment with Truvia, temperatures, and textures (we cook the vanilla shake into a pancake, I like to freeze the choc shake, etc).

So it's been a week since I started, and how much weight did I lose?


Ahem. I'm a little tired of snow if you couldn't tell. Anywho, I'll let ya'll know how I do later. I have green beans to cook!

Click here to see David's results and FAQ

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Oh hello pictures

I keep getting frustrated with the quality of pictures my phone takes and so I haven't uploaded much lately. Then I sort of had an "oh duh" moment when I realized I should just be using our nice digital camera. So here's some pics!

My latest tattoo! Jabba the Hutt from Return of the Jedi

The snow storm we had recently. Looks pretty but we were stuck for a few days and I got cabin fever lol

Birds that always hang in a nearby tree when it snows.

Roses from David from Valentines Day

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Complain complain

I hate not posting, but I feel bad when all I have to say is mostly me whining. A couple weeks ago, David and I got pretty sick. He got better after a few days but it took me a while. Then I twisted my ankle last week. THEN the crutches I used bruised me and I could barely use my arms the next few days. I've been kinda stuck for a while, either sick, or severe cramps (I'm out of meds and don't see the doc for a while), or needing to rest my foot, so I really haven't been up to much. I've been watching plenty of Sailor Moon and playing lots of Animal Crossing though (ah, the sweet life haha).

Oh and last weekend we celebrated Mary's birthday! We played this fun/complicated board game called Agricola , then went out for sushi, followed by some DnD. It was a good time and I'm so glad we're friends:)

We're suppose to get a huge snow storm starting tonight. Part of me is just so done with the snow, especially with our heat being unreliable. But I also love how it looks, and that David gets to stay home with me. I'm a sucker for a day full of video games and cuddles.

Last note, we got a Playstation 4! We used Amazon points and got it for only $150! I'm so excited to watch Blu-rays, I've never seen one before. David bought me Pacific Rim on blu-ray for Christmas, so we're going to watch that first. He's already played a few free games on it and the graphics are just so insane! I'm so glad we were able to afford it.

Valentines Day and David's birthday are coming up, so expect a post on those soon!

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

And a happy new year

I'm really pooped from doing things around the house today but also feel like blogging, so apologies in advance for how frazzled/random this post may be.

We spent New Years with some friends in Reston, and though the drive was long (especially at 1am when you just want to sleep), we had a good time and I got a bottle of wine out of it (woo alcohol white elephant).

Our heat hasn't been doing too great lately. As you probably know, everyone is getting hit with super cold weather, and it seems our radiators can't keep up. We even spent a night at David's parents it got so cold here. Hopefully the coldest days are behind us, plus we plan to buy another little heater.

I have a severe addiction to Animal Crossing New Leaf. Granted it's not really a bad addiction, but I do play it all throughout the day. Yoga, AC, dishes, AC, dusting, AC... You get the idea.

David shaved his beard and omg, who is this guy??

He's so skinny!

I leave you with this Jpop song that is so insanely catchy: